The Miracle In The Trial

As some of you know this summer I participated in a hospital internship. Specifically, I studied pancreatitis. By this I mean I was sick with pancreatitis in the hospital for essentially the whole summer. It wasn’t exactly the summer vacation I had planned, but it did have a very amazing miracle in the middle of it.

At the end of May, the doctors discover hundreds of cholesterol, soft, sludgy stones in my gallbladder. Due to their soft consistency, they couldn’t be seen on normal imaging. We have no idea how long they were there.

Flash forward several days to when I was home and that’s when the miracle occurred. I woke up one day and discovered that all my dysautonomia symptoms were gone!! It is incredible! At first, I just thought I was having a good day, but the good days didn’t stop. Talking to my doctor, he believes I possibly could have had a systemic inflammation disease because of the bad gallbladder that caused all my symptoms.

This last spring my family and I felt compelled to pray for me to be healed from the top of my head to the bottom of my toes. We claimed this every time we prayed. I even had friends praying this over me. Now, pancreatitis is definitely not what I had in mind, and when I first went in on April 18, I didn’t think that this was me getting better… however it was.

Miracles normally don’t happen the way we think they will…actually… God NEVER works the way we think He will. If it happened the way, we wanted it then it wouldn’t be a miracle. Part of the miracle is dirty, but there is so much more beauty to it. A miracle come from an open heart experiencing total and utter surrender.

I cannot thank God enough for what he has done. He has blessed me with this gift with which I definitely don’t deserve. Why he chose me I’m not sure, but I’m going to praise Him just the same. This precious gift he has given me, I will not squander it. I will use what he has given me to raise more awareness for dysautonomia.

Now, a word to all my friends out there who are still struggling with their symptoms. Don’t stop searching. Do not except the answer that you will never know what caused your dysautonomia. You are your own biggest advocate. The best thing to do is keep searching. Together we will uncover and cure everyone’s illness. I won’t stop searching for answers, will you stand with me?